Twice upon a time...

Tagged!

Fri, 23 Jun 2006 04:44:30 GMT

Tagged by
List seven songs you are into right now. No matter what the genre, whether they have words, or even if they're not any good, but they must be songs you're really enjoying now. Post these instructions in your LiveJournal along with your 7 songs. Then tag 7 other people to see what they're listening to.

SONGS:
1. Sodom South Georgia- Iron & Wine
2. Passing Afternoon- Iron & Wine
3. Wolf Song- Patrick Wolf
4. Funny Valentine- Paulson
5. Angeles- Elliott Smith
6. Jealous Guy- (cover by) Elliott Smith
7. Lunacy Fringe- The Used (<< only because it was dedicated to me. I don't like The Used.)

TAGGED:
1- srzly
2- datslikesofetch
3- ibanezmanny
4- kill_yourfriend
5- _tulipsr_better
6- crazynerda
7- coppersky

George is capable of such a thing!?!?

Mon, 19 Jun 2006 07:57:04 GMT

Grievious George [3:49 AM]: I would strip for you for free if the time was approriate lmao
Dontfake r0mance [3:50 AM]: omg, really?
Dontfake r0mance [3:50 AM]: wtf?
Dontfake r0mance [3:50 AM]: that was so random!!
Grievious George [3:50 AM]: yea it was
Grievious George [3:51 AM]: lol
Dontfake r0mance [3:51 AM]: lol
Dontfake r0mance [3:51 AM]: why me?
Grievious George [3:51 AM]: well...because you're hot? lol
Dontfake r0mance [3:52 AM]: lol!
Dontfake r0mance [3:52 AM]: and you would to me? how does that make sense?
Grievious George [3:52 AM]: well that's if there was a time when we were playing around and stuff and I brought that up
Dontfake r0mance [3:53 AM]: lol, shut up

"There's a fine line between human and animal."

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 23:02:41 GMT

You wanna laugh at someone ridiculous? Well then go check the comments on my last LJ post.

Thanks Mela.

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 06:56:25 GMT

This is something a friend of mine quoted from a friend of hers:

"Thank you, I'm sorry, and I love you are three things you should never say, but always show."

I partially agree with it. I think that you should say those things but, as much as you may mean them, without any action to back your words up, your words are futile and meaningless. You should definitely always show these things if you really mean them, apart from saying them. Remember, words are cheap-- if not backed up with actions.

Photo Journal

Sun, 28 May 2006 05:41:59 GMT

So, I just got this random idea.

I'm gonna make a new LJ account (while keeping this one) and it'll be all about pictures I will edit. I tend to get a lot of compliments and requests so, this may not be a bad idea.

It's one of my favorite hobbies and I enjoy doing it so much. I actually take my time with each picture until it matches my vision of how it should be. At first I'll post random, edited pictures, including some of mine, until I get requests.

You guys can start requesting now. I don't care who it is or what kind of picture it is (nothing obscene, please). The ones I'll post will be edited according to my tastes, like it or not. If you request, I can send you one of yours as an e-mail or MySpace message edited the way you'd like. If you'd like to request, please comment me.

Do you guys like the idea?

Sat, 27 May 2006 23:12:19 GMT

I went to a bar recently, in West Palm, for a show and I was quite shocked to see this:

close-up

yes, that's right. condoms. candy-flavored ones, where you're supposed to go to buy candy.

gross.

Sun, 21 May 2006 21:16:56 GMT

48% of guys said that a lot of hook ups boost their reputation.

76% of you [girls] said that a lot of hook ups harm your reputation.

la la la laaa...

Sun, 14 May 2006 04:14:04 GMT

The beer I had for breakfast was a bottle of Mad Dog
And my 20/20 vision was fifty percent off
You said punch-buggy red and punched me right in my left eye
I said don't you mean pediddle? and I lit his house on fire

He came home on acid I was holding his shotgun
I was dressed like Tina Turner in beyond thunder dome
He said don't shoot, I said I won't I love you you're my friend
I handed him my wig and shot myself in the head

Then I stuffed a box of tissues in the hole in my skull
I got in my Mazda and I drove to the mall
I got a big Johnson shirt and some silicone tits
When I pulled out the tissues they were covered with shit

And the beer I had for breakfast was a box of cheap white wine
And the boom box on my shoulder was a box of clementines
I ate every single one without noticing the mold
You said you're gross my darling, I said no I'm rock and roll

Even though I'd never ever been in a band
I got cool as black ice tattooed on my hand
And the christians gave me comic books as if I would be scared
Of burning in hell well I was already there

And the beer I had for breakfast silver bullet in the brain
And the beer I had for lunch was a bottle of night train
And the beer I had for dinner was my crazy neighbor's pills
We had to sit down on skateboards jut to make it down the hill

Then I peed my pants and you stole the groom's cigar
And some old man made me watch him masturbate locked in his car
When I got back to the apartment you were face down on the floor
You said don't go to bed yet let's go get a 64

And the beer I had had for breakfast was a pint of Jim Beam
And a fifth of peach schnapps and some warm Sunny D
And you said bottoms up just as I bottomed out
I tried to scream fuck you but blood was pouring out my mouth

Evan Dando never planned on telling you the truth
And your Leonardo ID card is your fountain of youth
You can be a teenager for your whole fucking life
Just find some pretty sucker and make that bitch your wife

I guess by now you all know my friend Danny broke his neck
He was driving home from Sirens when he got into a wreck
First I cried for him and then I cried for me
Haunted by the ghost of the girl I used to be

But the rocks with holes are warm in my hands
And I buried my toes in the hot hot sand
And the silver pink pony kisses me and says
You've come a long, long way and you deserve to be really happy

Grad Nite!!!

Sun, 07 May 2006 18:38:01 GMT

Friday, May 5, 2006-- Cinco De Mayo

'Twas a phenomenally awesome night...

<lj-cut>

Inside the bus

View outside the bus

Upon arrival

What's up with that smile!?

Disney World's Magic Kingdom

The main stage with Fefe Dobson

The Palace of my dreams!

I was obsessed with it okay?!

A random, gorgeous building with lake reflection

Jahzel

The beautiful, cobwebbed chandelier inside Haunted Mansion

Ben, Noel, and Chino modeling at their best!

Me, Jahzel, and Jessi

Fireworks at Midnight!

Stupid flourescent light in my way!!

The magnificent, eerie-looking castle!

Making a stupid face

Ben, Chino, and Noel inside the Teacups!

Party Time!-- Somehow I got stuck in a sandwich!

The view outside the cruise

The Mickey Mouse ears on the caps don't show! :[

Inside cruise

It all ended too soon!
Friends-only post soon to come! ;]

update!

Mon, 01 May 2006 19:35:40 GMT

SOOOO... life is getting a bit hectic right now, especially this month.
Graduation is in a FEW WEEKS!! "woot! and (deep, heavy)sighhhh"
Right now I have to worry about getting myself into a college, filling out my FAFSA form, and whatnot.
The most exciting and perhaps STRESSFUL thing I have to do this month is choreograph a dance for my final, dance project. It's gonna be fun. I have a group of 5 girls, including myself. We're gonna be 19th century French prostitutes since we're doing Moulin Rouge's "Lady Marmalade." Apart from having to choreograph it, my group decided they'd be in good hands in putting me in charge of the hair, makeup, and costume. I was more than willing to concur in this, of course... I'm also opening the song, which means I'm gonna have start it before they all come in. Yikes. This is all thrilling and fun yet oh, so stressful!
On another note, I've decided I'm not gonna look for a job until after I graduate.
I wouldn't have time to dedicate myself to more important things that are present in my life at the moment.
Which reminds me... f'n FINALS!! very soon. suckss.
To Mario: Te estrano como nunca. Hang tight and things will get better...
P.S. I don't care if you like it or not. I don't like it either but it's what's needed.

Last weekend!

Thu, 27 Apr 2006 23:52:11 GMT

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In the limo... Carlos (front), Leo (back)

Hummer "Poker Room" Limo...

Overhead mirror reflection

Raul

Maria

Kris

Mario having butt sex with Raul on the dancefloor

Evelyn

Cinthya

Distractions/Impatience

Jasmin

Jessi (my niece), Jahzel

Jahzel's boyfriend holding our stuff while we took pictures! haha :]

Leslie and Raul

At the "after-party".... we're too kool to be pretty

@ The Marriot Melanie and Carlos

Where's the butterfly? :'[

On our way to the beach...

@ The House of Curtains... Currents... mah boo on drums... and, yes, they stole the show!!

Emergency Numbers Kenny on drums

Alex Death

George?

wtf? all he needs is the straightjacket. ; ] hahah

HAH! I wrote this a while back ago...

Sat, 15 Apr 2006 07:33:17 GMT

but never was seen.

17. Honestly, Do you believe in God?
how could i not? please smash your head against the wall several times if you don't. perhaps then your occipital lobe will begin to function properly for the first time. gosh, i think you must be blind if you don't. (i may sound naively "proud" to most of you) but you have the audacity to call us zealots (and with such convinced certainty, might i add)!!! now, really?? f*ken open your eyes. look at the world around you. the simplest thing has a universe behind it. study it, watch it. give up on tv and internet for a while. don't use your i-pod, don't listen to music, f*ck the cellphone. f*ck the newspapers, the madness, the words said by others dancing 'round your head, influencing your beliefs. get outta your house and go outside. let your surroundings be your new pair of "headphones," your music. get comfortable with it. study everything around you. contemplate, ponder, wonder. your brain is the size of a peanut (don't forget), compared to the vastness and the depth, and the universe inside a universe that is creation. yes, creation! go outside. clear your mind. contemplate, ponder, wonder. focus. not on your life, your surroundings. do it again. try it. There you go. Now you're beginning to see the fingerprints of your Maker. Now you can feel it. You can. and now you believe me.

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 02:30:15 GMT

and i cherish every little thing you do.

EVERY! ONEEE!! must answer this!! ahhhhhhh!

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 23:30:35 GMT

1. name:
2. birthday:
3. place of residence:
4. what makes you happy:
5. what are you listening to now/have listened to last:
6. do you read my lj:
7. if you do, what is particularly good/bad about it:
8. an interesting fact about you:
9. are you in love/have a crush at the moment:
10. favourite place to be:
11. favourite lyric:
12. best time of the year:
13. what would you get me for my birthday (money is not a factor)?
14. what would you change about me?

RECOMMEND
1. a film:
2. a book:
3. a band, a song and an album:

PLUS
1. one thing you like about me:
2. two things you like about yourself:
3. put this in your lj so i can tell you what i think of you.
4. POST A PICTURE OF YOURSELF!

can you see it?

Mon, 03 Apr 2006 21:32:18 GMT

ARGGGGG!!!!!

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 23:10:31 GMT

ughhhff!! I'm so fucking upset with computers!! I was writing a fucking message to someone in my defense in response to false accussations, and it was already about 4-5 pages long! All my effin' work is gone!!! I'd made sure to copy it all so that I could paste it in case the internet froze but it didn't even save! I wish for just this moment that I was violent to help release this anger and frustration and could throw this glass next to me and enjoy seeing it shatter! Fuck. I'm so upset!!!!!!

Fucking computer trying to play April Fool's jokes on me. I think it was payback for the prank I pulled on my boyfriend. Damn it! }:O

you won't believe who I saw!

Fri, 31 Mar 2006 01:10:14 GMT

No other music gets my blood to rapidly surge through my veins as that of the Gipsy Kings'. That is why I must change the music in order to concentrate on this I'm about to write!

Yesterday was an incredible day!! I went to the Get Motivated Seminar held here in Bank Atlantic Arena in Ft. Lauderdale. I went with my parents and brother. We were there around 10:30am, so that means I didn't go to school! Exceptional tycoons such as Collin Powell, New York's mayor, Giuliani, Zig Ziggler, popular comedian Jerry Lewis, and many others were there to speak about what leadership is, how to achieve success, and whatnot. Thousands upon thousands overfilled the arena. There were lots of men and women dressed in blazers and dress shoes. I was one of the very few non-adult people who attended. My favorite speaker was Mayor Giuliani. He truly won my respect and admiration. He's an extraordinary speaker who said great things on what a leader is and the qualities they possess. "A leader cares for his people, but more than that, he loves them," was one of the things he said. Suze Orman, "America's Finance Specialist," said something I hope to never forget: "Your thoughts become your words, your words become your actions, your actions become your habits, and your habits become your destiny." It was great listening to people that have achieved success in their careers speak about the things that have helped them get so far... simple things, such as changing your way of thinking, your attitude, your lifestyle. Focusing on sharpening mind, body, and spirit, one said. Being successful in the little things that are in your control, is what I'm inspired to aspire now after that seminar. It'd begun at 7am and ended at 5:30pm. I stayed there 'til its end. Jerry Lewis! was hilarious! Woot, I saw a man live, who was friends with Frank Sinatra!! And now I'll share some of his jokes (that are much funnier when heard from the mouth of Jerry Lewis):

"It's funny how Chinese people name their children. You wouldn't believe how they get their ideas. What they do is they grab handfuls of silverware and throw 'em as far up as they can above them and and as the forks, knives, and spoons fall down to the ground, they listen carefully to the sounds being made: Kling, klong, clash, ching, chong!"

"[80-year old Jerry Lewis speaking about himself] Once, not too long ago, I was walking down a busy street when I saw a young man with brown boots up to his knees, raggedy clothes, and long hair swerving to one side of his head, spiked, in colors of all kinds: blue, yellow, red, green.... I stood still and stared at him, puzzled. The young man asked me, 'Old man, you've never done anything daring in your life before, heh?!' 'Yeah,' I responded, 'I had sex with a parrot once and I thought you might've been my son.'"

"Once there was this middle-aged married man who'd taken his wife to a clinic for a doctor's appointment. Waiting for his wife outside the office, a while had passed when the wife had came out from the clinic when she rushed to him and said, excited, "Honey, Doctor said I have breasts like that of an 18-year old!" "Heh! Did he say anything about that 55-year old ass?" "No, your name wasn't brought up."

Hahaha. He was funny. It was his 80th birthday that day. I'm glad I had the opportunity to see such important people speak wisdom derived from experience into my ears.

It was awesome! :)

pimp!? huhhh??

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 07:45:27 GMT

YAY!! SO0o... I'm super-exhausted and I won't sound as EXCITED (=D) as I am right now (althoughireallyshouldn'tbe).

Today the most apparently ridiculous idea was uttered from the mouth of my prom date, Fabian:
*on the phone*
"I have a fantastickkk idea!! Ready to hear it?"
"What is it?"
"Your birthday is on prom right?"
"Yes. Why?"
"Okay, Okay. Uhh, you should be a PIMP!"
"Wtf are you talking about, Fabian??"
"Okay, okay! Look, for prom you could go with me and go with the guy
who asked you to go, too! And then you'll be with two dates instead of one!!
How does that sound?!"
"Fabian, you're an idiot. I have to go now, lunch is over. Bye."

*appx. 13 hours later in Mario's car*

"OMG! Melanie, go to my PROM!!"
"So Demzy, are you asking me out??"
"Of course!"
"Fuck yeah, I'm there!"
"WOOT!"
"Be Mario's date."
"Awesome."
*Mario slaps Melanie's hand*
*2 minutes later*
"OMG!! Be MY DATESSSS!!!! I've decided to take
Fabian's advice, but instead of
2, how about 3?!"
*they agree*
"I'm dead serious, y'know."
"Yeah! We are, too."
"Heck yeah!"

SO NOW I HAVE 3 PROM DATES!!!!! WHY?!
BECAUSE DEZM IS A FRIGGIN' QUEEN.

Mistakes.

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 23:53:35 GMT

Like a stone thrown in water, forming an enlarging ripple, the littlest thing you do can grow into something big, beyond your control. We must extinguish childish impulses... act in wisdom... for we think living "freely" indeed makes us free but, old, gray-haired wisdom is your most loyal friend. If we trust her and let her guide us, only then will you know free. A little "innocent" act can lead to something irreparable. So, think beyond the action before it becomes an action. Beyond. Is it worth it? Don't put yourself at risk, for the gravity of loss and regret can be unbearable....

doce mio.

Tue, 21 Mar 2006 02:34:14 GMT

TODAY:

I screamed as if a rapist was holding a knife to my neck in a dark alley because I saw a two-inch mosquitoe inside my house.

WHA?!?!??!

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 23:24:11 GMT

Hilarious piece of "conversation"...

I Cut Grass 25 c [5:58 PM]: you i/med yesterday?
Crazyjessi609 [5:59 PM]: yes i did....and i pressed the request something button too by accident
Crazyjessi609 [5:59 PM]: i anted to have a talk w/ you about the ownership of my boyfriends testicle
I Cut Grass 25 c [5:59 PM]: i saw the window when i got home at 4
Crazyjessi609 [5:59 PM]: wanted***
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:00 PM]: you cant have the one i own
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:00 PM]: its mine
Crazyjessi609 [6:00 PM]: Now now. We're all young adults here. There must be some compromise to reach.
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:00 PM]: if it ends in me keeping mine and erik's right testicle sure
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:01 PM]: oh and me not having to give anything else up
Crazyjessi609 [6:01 PM]: Robert owns the other one. Most of him belongs to me. I need the parts i'm missing.
Crazyjessi609 [6:01 PM]: you can keep yours, lol. I want his.
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:01 PM]: mine
Crazyjessi609 [6:01 PM]: I have blackmail on robert. Please don't push me to extremes.
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:01 PM]: if i ever get testicle cancer i have the right to take his to replace my own
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:02 PM]: and i'm not giving that up
Crazyjessi609 [6:02 PM]: He promised he'd give it to me in his will, when he dies....that is being arranged as we speak.
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:03 PM]: i'm sorry jessica but i own that one and if in any case i need it is my right to take it
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:03 PM]: you have the rest of hime be happy with what you got
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:03 PM]: greed is a deadly sin
Crazyjessi609 [6:03 PM]: No. Never. I'm going to get it back. Just watch...
Crazyjessi609 [6:03 PM]: lmao
Crazyjessi609 [6:04 PM]: btw, how did you win it?
Crazyjessi609 [6:04 PM]: he doesn't remember
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:04 PM]: don't remember
Crazyjessi609 [6:04 PM]: lol
Crazyjessi609 [6:04 PM]: great
Crazyjessi609 [6:04 PM]: neither does robert
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:04 PM]: he bet me somthing
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:04 PM]: and i won
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:05 PM]: so i got the testicle
Crazyjessi609 [6:05 PM]: so gross....
Crazyjessi609 [6:05 PM]: but don't expect me to give up.
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:05 PM]: ok
Crazyjessi609 [6:05 PM]: I shall remain persistent
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:05 PM]: and i resistant
Crazyjessi609 [6:05 PM]: if you wake up dead one day, it was me.
Crazyjessi609 [6:06 PM]: oh, you can rhyme. How intelligent of you!
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:06 PM]: i'll make sure to wake up if i die
Crazyjessi609 [6:06 PM]: lol
Crazyjessi609 [6:07 PM]: anyway, i'll let you go for now. But this isn't over.
Crazyjessi609 [6:07 PM]: Good bye Tony.
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:07 PM]: well as enlightining as this conversation has turned out to be i have virtual beings to kill
Crazyjessi609 [6:07 PM]: have fun
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:07 PM]: i will

I Cut Grass 25 c [6:07 PM]: and i'll enjoy everything a little bit more because i have 3 testicles
Crazyjessi609 [6:08 PM]: i always knew there was something wrong w/ you.

I Cut Grass 25 c [6:08 PM]: you should be looking to erik he has none
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:08 PM]: of his own at least
Crazyjessi609 [6:08 PM]: Now I know what it is. You have an obsession w/ man testicles.
Crazyjessi609 [6:08 PM]: eww.
Crazyjessi609 [6:09 PM]: I have no comment to make about my boyfriends genitalia
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:09 PM]: now listen i love my testicles as much as any mon loves his own (i'm sure erik loves the memory of his)
I Cut Grass 25 c [6:09 PM]: man*
Crazyjessi609 [6:10 PM]: ::sigh:: just go away, lol
Crazyjessi609 [6:10 PM]: go kill aliens
Crazyjessi609 [6:10 PM]: or w/e
Crazyjessi609 [6:10 PM]: Bye Bye

a song, or something...

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 18:13:36 GMT

this place is not worthwhile
i belonged elsewhere
but i've brought myself here
my own, selfish decisions
that selfless place is where i belong
there's where i belong
with You
I know being here really brings nothing
Everything is the exact opposite
They are two different extremes
Wash me with ocean and sand
polish off the dirt i've brought upon myself
i'm on the inside looking out
i don't want to be inside,
i want to be out, with you
reaching to those-- helpless-- inside
I have brought upon myself spiritual shackles of doom
yet, i enjoy this grey spiritual cell deceptively dressed
in vibrant colors
the physical eye obliviously allured....

blah blah blah

Wed, 08 Mar 2006 01:58:08 GMT

Things are just......... exciting!!

Que ha pasado?!

Wed, 01 Mar 2006 03:43:51 GMT

I have come to realize that I'm a slob when I shouldn't be. I have allowed myself to become this way. What happened to the girl that used to be in Principal's Honor Roll and shrieked at the sight of a B? What about the girl all teachers loved, admired, and were greatly impressed by? That was me like 7 years ago. I suck now. I'm the total opposite. There's controversy between my teachers and I almost every day now. I have let my brain go to waste. I'm not accomplishing anything at all. I should be accomplishing something everyday. It's not even about accomplishing academically. I know I have so much potential in me but in school I hang out with losers (well, some). I guess I don't have enough willpower within myself to not be influenced, as I am unconsciously. I think my laziness is my greatest influence. My laziness started once I realized how my hard work was underestimated, underappreciated, etc, etc. I'm in regular classes because I put myself there. Me and my laziness. Me and my procrastination and carlessness. I'm only 2 months away from graduation and now's the time I've been smacked on the face with this epiphany. I'm giving up on the internet for a while. Good-bye my readers! I'll be back soon. I'll be away for enough time to murder the urge that always drives me to be online. I hope the addicts in here do the same! Think of this, what makes your yesterday different than your today? What about before yesterday? What about a week ago? There are so many questions to answer... So many things to think about, and learn, other than learning what the hell people think of your blogs or what they have to say to you through MySpace comments and messages. What kind of life is that?! Have a great week! See you soon.

Virgin, anyone?

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 02:17:03 GMT

SoOoO...

Today in first period I was overhearing this conversation going on between two girls right next to me. I vaguely understood what one girl was telling the other, since she was mostly whispering. After the "storyteller" left to her original seat, the other girl, who's pretty much a partner of mine in that Ceramics class, told me the basics of what her friend had come to tell her. She told me that the girl was in love with her on-again off-again boyfriend and that he "loves her, too." She told me that her boyfriend is always wanting to have sex, and although she doesn't really want to, she does it anyway. She described to me their relationship as one that has no actual substance; at least, from her descriptions, that's what you'd make out of it. Anyway, I was just really upset with the thought of how to this generation sex means very little. Society has greatly reduced the value of physical intimacy between lovers (and even more than that)-- what we call sex. I'm disgusted how sex is EVERYWHERE nowadays. Gosh, has anyone here watched the reality TV show Date Your Mom on MTV? For those that haven't, it's a show about a guy or a girl who's looking to date someone of the opposite sex (sometimes they feature a special for homosexuals). There are three different candidates that get to participate. The catch is, the boy or the girl that's wanting to find a date must first have a date with the person's mom. They base their judgment on who they want to date according to how their date goes with their mom. They do not get to see or meet any of the candidates 'til after the boy/girl has dated all three moms. Pretty cool, huh? Well, they get to ask the moms all kinds of questions about their son/daugther. It's unbelievable how the moms don't become appalled with some of the questions that are asked that, in some way, imply sex. Other times, they're just senselessly brazen, asking them in straightforward manner, without causing anyone to second guess what they're talking about. What I'm mostly stricken by are the quick, honest responses from the mothers. It's like nothing to them. What the hell? Since when has it been this way?? Sex is the most priceless gift you could ever give to someone you love romantically. (But, now romance has a new meaning. It's cheap now. It's shallow and meaningless.) I personally believe that you could really and truly love someone only once. Of course, you'll experience romantic love (called "eros love") with more than one (rare) person in a lifetime, but, true, transcendent love? I think it takes one person for someone to be able to love, with their one heart. Imagine having our hearts divided, all pieces having belonged to a different lover. How is your heart whole? How is it possible to give it to someone very special wholely, and completely, if it's been divided? If pieces of it have a past. Anywho... you imagined the illustrations in your head, right? Hopefully. Now, get this... Instead of the heart, imagine the soul. The soul is the essence and the root of our being, of who we are, of what makes you an individual. The Bible (many may not agree with me here now) mentions that sex is a spiritual experience created and done for the purpose of expressing love. It explains that when two are joined together in intercourse the souls of one another will then be shared, and become one, for a lifetime. Imagine now, believing this is true, having been with multiple partners. What will happen then? Your soul will be reduced to pieces, little worthless pieces. How, then, are you able to love the one you will love, the one and only, with your all? With all your soul? What would then be the value of your "gift," the priceless gift sex is? I can imagine why some people tend to feel incomplete and empty a lot of the time. If they've lived a promiscuous lifestyle, you can bet it's the hollow feeling inside the soul that cries it were whole again. These are just thoughts of mine (and more than that, I hope). I hope you read this carefully and consider everything I talked about. I hope this penetrates deeply inside of you, causing you to wake up if all along you've thought things differently, or lived the kind of lifestyle I apparently don't condone. Your future is in your hands. The what will be's, the what won't be's. Your present decisions are the controller of your future. No one else has access to managing that controller, but yourself.